Why is everything going so wrong in my life?

I'm sorry for the way you were treated in school, kids can be so mean. It sounds like you are suffering from depression. You should go to a doctor and talk open and honestly with them, tell them how you are feeling. You might need to be put on antidepressants which can make you feel better. It should also help you to not want to be getting high on medication. I suffer from depression, bipolar and social anxiety. I'm on meds for all of these and although I don't go out much I am at least able to when I do have too. Anxiety can make it hard to socialize and make it hard to make decisions. Keep you head up things will get better. Suicide is NEVER the answer. You can email if you want to talk.